Introduction:
This is my honest prayer and reflection. I’m not a perfect man — far from it — but I believe in a perfect God who redeems broken lives. If you’re struggling, lost, or tired of carrying the weight of your past, I hope my words speak to your heart. You’re not alone. There is still time, there is still hope, and there is still grace.
Dear YHWH, my God. The Most High.
How are you today, Lord? I know You already know what’s in my heart, so I won’t pretend. The truth is — things aren’t going well with me. And You know that.
I come to You today asking for forgiveness. Forgiveness for how selfish I’ve been, worrying about the concerns of this world, my family, and myself, instead of putting my full trust in You.
All my life, I’ve failed You, Father. I am a sinner among sinners, a liar among liars. And yet, I know You are the Most High — and that Jesus sits at Your right hand.
Looking back, my life has been marked by many failures. I’ve spent so much of it trying to please man, trying to win love from others, seeking validation from family, friends, and women — when all along, I should’ve been leaning on You. I put everything and everyone before You: relationships, friendships, even my own children. And despite it all, I’m still lost.
Father, You are the Alpha and the Omega, the beginning and the end. You visit the sins of generations, but You also offer mercy. I want to end the generational curse that hangs over my life and the lives of those I love.
I rebuke the evil that wants to separate me from You. Teach me how to be a better man — a man whose trust in You is unshakable. A bond between us that no one can break. Teach me how to pray, not just in times of trouble, but also in times of joy.
Teach me how to be slow to anger and quick to love. Help me walk with kindness and reflect Your light so clearly that others will see how great You are when they look at me.
For those who’ve known me — the man I used to be — they know the vile things I’ve done: a whoremonger, adulterer, liar, thief, backstabber, manipulator. But that’s not who I want to be remembered as.
Father God, You have taken thirsts that I once had away from me — and now I do not desire them anymore. Thank You.
Keep me in Your memory, Father. Change me. Prepare me to be ready, because if I stay ready, I won’t have to get ready. No one knows the day or the hour. When You give Jesus the command, this world — as we know it — will come to an end.
I admit my youth and even my adulthood have been marred by sin. I’ve held on to anger, indulged in drugs, chased women, disrespected my parents, and more. And all the while, I was empty. Completely empty.
Lord, You are my only hope. My hope rests in You alone. You said that if we ask, we shall receive. So, I ask You: work with me. Progress me. Let Your light shine through me so the world sees Your glory, not mine.
If I died tonight, I wouldn’t be leaving this life right. Not tonight. So many dreams — gone. Would people remember the roads I tried to pave? I don’t know. Because when I’m dead, I’m gone. I won’t hear what’s said about me — good or bad.
But while I’m still here, Father, help me be the man You want me to be — not the man I think I should be. Your way is righteous and just. Mine are not.
Thank You for listening, Father. I ask for Your guidance, for growth, wisdom, and the ability to truly praise You — in word, in deed, and in spirit.
Amen.